Sunday, May 01, 2005

Personal Entry-Winds Swirling

In a corner of the village I sit, helping when I can but mostly...watching. In and out go travellers of all types: hunters, soldiers, mercenaries, and the occaisional entertainer. All of these beings travel to this place in hopes of grasping a bit of fleeting glory through the Force. They travel here to hone their skills in hopes of becoming stronger, stronger so they may do what they wish without answering to others.

I resent them all. In the Force they seek power. In the Force I seek peace. Hopefully, through this peace, I will be able to help end this war, and the trauma we are inflicting upon our galaxy, and each other. Too many have fallen at the hands of blind hatred. The image of Kimbrya leaving and becoming one with the Force is forever etched in my mind. The cause of her death: orders from the Emperor, to investigate the Temple. I know Deomo was following his orders, I know, at that time, that was all he was able to do. I hope after his battle with the pendant, he will become more, for Meela...Colonel Cauil on the other hand, used trust and faith to manipulate us and almost kill me. His hands are dirty with the blood of Kimbrya as well. I will see to it that they are cleansed.

I worry how I will leave the village. Even in my own musings, I can see how easily my words slip to those of hatred and anger. For my sake, and those I love, I hope the correct path is set before me to see. I am trying Scarlet. Please believe I am trying my best, for us, for our life, and our future. Help those we love: Avios, Deomo, and Ebe..and all our friends that have been of help. Please..be strong for me.